Tag: Cameron’s Erosion

My 13th — and Perhaps Final — Portal Hypertension Bleed

At the end of my previous post, My Mother’s Last Three Days, I announced that I had had my thirteenth portal hypertension bleed at my mother’s death bed.*

It had happened. A bleed. A big one. I was taken to the hospital by ambulance.

I think that I have never been nearer to a complete breakdown than I was that night in the ER. Why a bleed now? Even if she had had enough opiates to cloud her memory, my last memory of my mother will be this: not being there for her.

The usual thing, the IV’s, the history, the whole admissions rigmarole proceeded. I told the GI on call that night if I wasn’t going to be scoped in the morning when there may still be a chance of finding the source of the bleed, that I wouldn’t consent at all to an upper endoscopy. The gastroenterologists here have repeatedly delayed up to twenty hours between the start of a bleed and their looking for its source, and then are surprised when they find none. A bleed can stop on its own, and the IV medications, as I have explained before, aid this.

I was taken for the endoscopy at 8:30 or so in the morning.

When I was returned to the room, my husband was there. He had his news, and I had mine. His presence was enough to tell me what his was: my mother was dead.

Mine? The GI who did the endoscopy said that what she had seen was something she could not fix, and neither could her colleagues. I needed to get to a teaching hospital as soon as possible.

I had a stray blood vessel resting over two large varices. Normally, if I understood her correctly, this vessel could have been cauterized, but as it was positioned, there was a risk of burning through the vessel and into my varices, causing a massive bleed.

Things had gone for bad to worse. I was too distressed to be surprised, quite frankly.

So we got in contact with my hepatologist at the University of Alabama in Birmingham about six hours away, and an appointment was set so that he could have a look for himself first thing Monday morning.

Here are the pictures from the July 9 endoscopy clearly showing the problem in my esophagus. I think the doctor said the purple things were large varices that couldn’t be banded because of the blood vessel that couldn’t be cauterized because of its position.

In my next post, I’ll explain how things got worse — again.

*(To catch you up if you are new here, I have Primary Biliary Cirrhosis (or Primary Biliary Cholangitis), and since August 2010, I have had some minor and a some awful episodes of vomiting blood —  hematemesis — because of bursts varices in my esophagus. There have been lots of co-diagnoses along the way, from ordinary ulcer upper GI bleeds, to Cameron’s Erosions, to Dieulafoy’s Lesions, but as will become evident, whatever you want to call the spouting body, the source was likely always the same: the portal pressure in my portal vein in my liver measured 15 on July 16, 2015,  dangerously high. It is now 2 to 4. More on that later.)

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Bleed 11, An Exploratory Endoscopy, Bleed 12, Injectafer Again

My trials with gastrointestinal bleeds continue. Simply go straight up and click Primary Biliary Cirrhosis or Portal Hypertension Bleeds if you are a late arrival to this wearisome party. At this point I think I keep chronicling them so I can remember myself, have I had 11 bleeds or 12? How many transfusions so far?

The Halloween Bleed 2014

I was trundling down the tracks uneventfully — how lovely an uneventful life can sometimes be — when I derailed on October 28, 2014. I started with melena, and so my husband drove me to the ER; I knew from the metallic taste in my mouth the upper GI bit would begin soon.

As one friend said, some people will do anything to  win the Halloween costume contest.
As one friend said, some people will do anything to win the Halloween costume contest.

Now every bleed has its moments, and this was during the Ebola scare. I thought I could perform a useful service to the Ebola response team every US hospital was throwing together last fall, so I told the triage nurse that within minutes, probably no more than an hour, I would be throwing up blood. She stopped me. Had I been to Africa or been around anyone who had? No and no. However, I continued, since I posed no infectious risk, I was the ideal test: get a team suited up, handle me as though my emesis had an unknown cause, and see how well they did with avoiding getting any bloody vomit on exposed skin. She scurried away and passed me to a different waiting room for labs.

The tech just about had time to get the needle in when up came the red blood, a good bowl full (I had brought my own bowl). We were crammed in a tiny room where another nurse was charting. The two looked horrified. I said, I told triage this would happen.

On a scale of 1 to 5, with 5 being worst yet (the first, early August 2010), this bleed ranked about a 2, and only because it was both a melena and emesis event. I didn’t need transfusing. The Injectafer iron infusions I had had back in April stood me well.

But then I made a mistake. After each upper GI bleed, the GI on call for the practice that has a monopoly in this town does an endoscopy to ostensibly find the source of the bleed. Since these scopes occur on average 18 – 22 hours after the bleed, and since in the meantime I have received bags of IV octreotide that stop GI bleeding, these are really Cover Their Asses exercises so they don’t discharge me with an active bleed. They have never once found the source of the bleed. Once you stop a bleed in the GI tract and it has had time to clot, chances of finding it are too small to bother with.

Back to the mistake, and the second memorable moment. The GI visited my room and said, while he didn’t think he had found the source of this bleed, he did find some oddity. “I stared at it for a long time.” This was what he had to say about the oddity he decided to call an ulcer and to put a clip on (another scar!) even though he said it was in an odd place, wasn’t bleeding, and wasn’t the color or shape expected. But to answer my questions he repeated, “as I said, I stared at it for a long time.” (How very reassuring!) He wanted to stare at it again in 3 months.

And like a fool, like an idiot, I foolishly, idiotically agreed to return February 3, 2015, so he could stare at it again.

February 3, 2015: The Exploratory Scope

So in I go as an outpatient, in fine fettle. Hg on January 21 of 13.1. Very respectable.

And the mysterious it? Vanished. The doc found the usual Cameron’s Erosions. I had a look at the pictures from his scope, and said, well, guess I’ll be back here soon. He said, on the contrary, all looked fine, no banding needed.

February 12, 2015. Bleed the Twelfth.

Nine days after the unremarkable exploratory I was in the ER again. This was a major bleed. On my new, devising as I go along, scale of 1-5, I’d say maybe a 4.0 to 4.5 based on projectile emesis and brief loss of consciousness. I still haven’t seen the stair stretcher or whatever it is the EMTs use (when I’ve needed it, I’ve been too far gone to see it).

My biggest fans will know two things seem familiar here. One is the date. A year ago, Feb. 12, 2014, I had had a bleed on the first anniversary of my collie’s death. Now it was the second anniversary. Rascal bled out, by the way. Undiagnosed tumors burst on his spleen. Well, that is just coincidental gothic bad luck.

But I’m not so sure about the other coincidence. The last time I had an exploratory scope in this city, I had a bleed about 64 hours later. 

That’s it. All done. I will have exploratories at University of Alabama-Birmingham (med school) Kirklin Clinic, but not here.

And I may refuse any post-bleed scopes here as well. But that is a story not yet completed. For now let’s leave it at this: February 3, 2015, as an outpatient in good heath I had Managed Anesthesia Care (meaning a nurse anesthetist is present throughout the procedure). On February 13, 2015, as an in-patient who had lost an estimated 3 – 4 units of blood less than 24 hours previously, I did not.

Back to the Injectafer Infusions

I left the hospital after Bleed 12 with a hg of 9.1. I had not been transfused. Two weeks later my hg had dropped to 8.7, and so I had my iron reserves checked:   My iron was at 28, % saturation 6, and ferritin 4. So the hematologist this time ordered two sets of Injectafer (4 infusions).

I should feel better by April 10.

At least I am now caught up on chronicling my crises.injec

Injectafer infusion

Cameron’s Erosion Erupts (Again): Bleed the Eighth

Update: The current (November 2014) hypothesis among my doctors is that whatever they were called in my past posts — Dieulafoy lesions, Cameron’s erosions, or bleeding ulcers — all these bleeds have their source in the portal hypertension which comes from cirrhosis which is caused by my auto immune system attacking my bile ducts, that is, my primary biliary cirrhosis.

Back when I first decided to write about having primary biliary cirrhosis in November 2009, I never figured that this would become my bloody blog. I have neglected the blog for months because if I am going to follow through with my plan to write an account of living with this auto-immune illness, then I have to, once again, post about another bleed. Each has its own special moments, however, and here I have two warnings for you, and a comment from my gastroenterologist.

Once again, as in bleed 7, the culprit was my Cameron’s Erosion (or Lesions), an ulcer “in the hiatal sac of patients with hiatal hernia,” which is how Wiipedia’s 2-line article describes the thing. You know you have a rare condition when Wikipedia has next to nothing. I described what I learned about Cameron’s after bleed 7.

The link to PBC is that because my liver is compromised by the disease, it is too dangerous to repair the hiatal hernia.

I’m getting better at identifying the onset of these bleeds, anyway. This time I even drove myself to the hospital. Signs were clear: black BM and the taste of iron in my mouth.

Now for the three things that made this bleed memorable, and some advice.

1. Do not let a doctor put in an IV. There is some incompatibility between all the things that I might need intravenously during a bleed, and so I end up with IVs in both arms. I had a great nurse in the ER who inserted the first IV as painlessly as I can remember. Then this doctor or resident drifted in. I could tell he hadn’t been on the job long — and thought he was God’s gift to the world — because he was wearing a V-neck scrub top that let me see way too much of his curly chest hair way too close up. He wanted a little practice with IVs, I guess. So he tried to start the second line. And failed, miserably. Blood spurting and me doing the vasovagal response — that is, fainting. Finally the nurse guided the doctor’s every move and the second IV was inserted.

She was a great nurse, and I asked her later, how do you stand that — doctors coming in and thinking they can do all you can, and you having to deal with the aftermath. Diplomatically, professionally, she responded that at least that doctor will think twice before he gets snippy when a nurse has trouble with an IV.

2. It hurts like hell to have your stomach pumped. And it’s worse when there’s no reason to do this. My bleeds sometimes have two parts: black stool and vomiting. The vomiting always happens, but when both occur, usually comes an hour or two later. This time, I got to the ER before I vomited. All that I needed was time, but for reasons best known to himself (and that itself is a problem), my ER doctor decided that instead of letting things take their course, he would pump the blood from my stomach.

Never again. I would have been better off sitting outside the doors of the ER until I threw up.

I always imagined stomach pumping would involve a tube down the throat, turning on the pump, and whoosh, all done.

It isn’t like that.

This is what it is like to have your stomach pumped: A tube is inserted up your nose and down your throat. If the first nostril tried gives the nurses trouble, then they start over with the second. They keep giving you water to drink so you swallow, and swallow down the tube. Maybe it was just me, maybe the tube was just lodged against a nerve, but it hurt like hell the entire time the tube was up my nose and down my throat. 

And the entire time isn’t a matter of minutes. It’s a matter of hours. The pumping is slow and not constant. You watch the content of your stomach (in my case, red blood followed by black) slowly proceed down this thin tube. Sometimes it starts flowing backwards. 

I supposed most who OD and have their stomachs pumped are out of it. I can’t imagine that anyone who has had it done would risk OD’ing twice. I was not out of it. Other than a local anesthetic sprayed in my throat, I had no recourse but to lie there in pain between 1 and 5:30 in the morning and watch my blow flow out of my stomach.

I talked to my floor nurses about this, and each said, you always have the right to refuse a procedure. And refuse I shall. 

3. Don’t go out during lightening storms. This was her advice when I asked my gastroenterologist how often people have both PBC varcies and Cameron’s lesions. First she suggested buying lottery tickets, and then backtracked, since having bad luck doesn’t mean having good luck too. (I spent an hour at the Harrahs in Cherokee last week and never once was ahead.)

Actually, her advice misses the mark. Not going out during lightening storms is an action I can take to avoid without fail being one of the rare people struck down.

But there is no way I can avoid without fail the next bleed.

PBC Bleed 7. The Vesuvius Within Me. Crashing in the Same Car.

Good thing I finally got around this month to describing November’s bleeds 5 and 6 in this continuing realtime account of me and my PBC (primary biliary cirrhosis) because now it’s already time to move along to bleed 7.

This was a rather dramatic one, occurring in the wee hours of January 18, 2013. My hemoglobin [hgb] dropped to a personal worst of 6.1, I landed in the ICU and then on the cardiology floor, and required 3 transfusions. A couple of days ago my hgb was 10.5, mildly anemic, but I feel great.

Why the ICU and cardio unit? Because when your hemoglobin drops that low (normal for post-menopausal women = 11.7 to  13.8), it means none of your organs — including your heart — are getting enough oxygen.

What went right this time was that the Asheville ER got a gastroenterologist in to perform an endoscopy immediately, while I was still actively bleeding. Except for my first bleed, in Huntsville the doctors waited 20 hours or more to ‘scope, after drugs and IV fluids had stopped the bleeding.

You can’t be sure of the source of the bleed if you don’t see the bleed.

The Asheville GI theorized what I had this time around was a Cameron’s Erosion. This is erosion in the stomach near the diaphragmatic haitus which is a hole where the esophagus passes into the stomach. The junction should be below the diaphragm, but if you have a hiatal hernia, as I do, then it is above the diaphragm. Usually, hiatal hernias cause no bother other than indigestion. But I have other things going on as a result of the PBC, namely protal hypertension and gastric and esophageal varices. (If you search “cameron’s erosions” + “portal hypertension” + pbc, Google comes up with 75 results, which in the Googleverse is close to zero.)

Now as it happened, I had an endoscopy and visit planned with my hepatologist, Dr. Brendan McGuire, at University of Alabama-Birmingham’s Liver Center for January 22 and 23. So immediately after leaving the hospital on the 21st, we headed south.

Dr. McGuire scoped me Tuesday morning and reported he agreed with the Asheville doctors. He described the area as not unlike a scrape on a kid’s knee that scabs over, but before it gets a chance to heal completely, keeps getting banged up. He didn’t see the site of my first bleed until a few weeks had passed but thinks this one was in its vicinity if not the same place.

So it could be like I keep crashing in the same car, having the same bleed over and again. Since I wasn’t scoped during bleeds 2 through 6, we’ll never know.

Why not fix the hiatal hernia? Too risky: its position, the sites of the erosion and varices, the amount of scar tissue, the thinness of the veins — lots of reasons.

What can be done: double the dose of beta blockers I’m taking to slow heartbeat and of antacids to reduce stomach erosion. And hope that the Vesuvius within me remains dormant.

And what about my primary biliary cirrhosis? I’m doing just fine there, holding fairly stable. It could be years and years before it is bad enough to warrant a transplant. There is something called a MELD score. Normal people’s is zero. Those near dead of liver failure have a score of 40. I’m at 8. Bleeds don’t factor in.

So all I have to do is hope I don’t erupt.

But what we need now is a little relief from the dreariness of reading about me going on about vomiting blood.

I suggest a segue to youtube to view some loveliness: David Bowie singing “Always Crashing in the Same Car.”

You can choose between this one with a particularly happy Bowie, or the GQ Awards show where Bowie wore sandals with socks, or this with a sassy Bowie around 3:18. Or all and more (like here, where he isn’t playing the guitar and seems not to know what to do with his arms).


PS: Although it doesn’t have much about PBC, this site has a cool diagram of possible diagnoses related to liver trouble.